I've had so much on my mind lately and been filled with more emotion that I ever thought possible. As of right now I'm relieved and overwhelmed at the same time and still trying to decided what I should have for breakfast, but I can't seem to make up my mind so breakfast can wait...
My sister has started dating what I think is the perfect guy for her. I've been watching her get weak in her knees and glow when she's with him and when she talks about him you can hear the butterflies in her tummy trying to burst free. It reminds me of when I was dating Chase and how he made me feel the exact same way. I've been thinking so much lately about how much I love him and how much he means to me. He works so extremely hard to provide for his family and I am so grateful for him and how he constantly blesses my life.
I love how he interacts with our son and how his love for him shows in every way and how my son looks at him like he's the best thing since powdered formula.
I love how Chase is always making time to be with us amongst his crazy and hectic work schedule and how when he has an awful day he leaves it at the office and come home happy.
I love how he kisses me every time he leaves the house and every time he comes home.
I love that he's still a kid at heart and isn't afraid to be goofy with me and that he loves me for who I am, despite all my flaws.
And one of the best things is being a wife and a mother... My son is incredible and is continues to amaze me as he continues to grow. Who would have thought you could love so much... a continuous love that is unconditional that grows each moment. He makes me so happy and I love his company each and every day! He's another dream come true!
I'm going to miss him when I start going back to working nights. That's one things I'm overwhelmed about is working again. It's a good thing that I do this because it will help us to get into a house sooner and give Chase more time to bond with Jackson, but I miss him even before I leave the house. It's been a wild adventure though find a job and interviewing and now awaiting my 8 hour orientation and not being able to see my son for that long. It'll be good though and I'm so happy to be able to help out again. Hopefully soon we'll be able to call a place our own. My heart is truly with my family and always will be.
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