Humph.....

I'd like to think I've grown enough in my life that I'm more knowledgeable than I have been in years past. Apparently this is not true. I see things not the way I want to see them, but the way it's important to see... all sides and situations... I see a girl searching for light, but keeps allowing the darkness to capture her time and time again. Every time she comes up for air, she is pulled back down without a fight. I fought for her once, as did many, but we now see we can't do anything for her if she's not going to put up the ultimate fight. I try to tell her what I see, what could be, might be, should be important but she's stuck in a current of the thickest fog... she doesn't care and because she doesn't care she's hurting everyone in the process and because hurting is one of our greatest adversaries, Satan, the devil, the person I loathe, uses that against us and pulls us apart and instead of having unconditional love we all give up and get pissed off. Anger fills every part of our body and it's hard to let go... it becomes blinding, we become biased, independent, stubborn and rude and we just keep right on hurting. I see all this, and because I see all this I'd like to think I have a bit more knowledge then I did when it all began, that when I give advice when asked for it, or my opinion, or my love or my consideration, that I'd know more beyond what lies before my eyes. Yes, I can see what's happening now, but I see the rest of it as well, and I'm sorry she can't, that right now she wont. I'm sorry I can't save her and I'm sorry we all have to sit idly by and watch what is happening to her because she wont accept help from a higher source... I'm sorry she has pushed away our Savior and forgotten the divine power of grace. I tried to tell her, to show her from my past experiences, but she's still so blinded. I still pray for her, I carry a prayer in my heart that encompasses most of it. I cry for her everyday... I will never abandon her, but I cannot save her, I've tried........ She has to save herself.